I'm coming to you from cail tonight. I came down for a couple days to see the family since christmas was spent with clairs mom, her boy friend scott, and her dad. Christmas was good. Nothing really to report. We hung out at the house... Opened presents.. Ate way to much food. We all went to the titanic exhibit at luxor after. That was cool. Really neat to see some of the stuff up close and personal.
I write this now in another state of confusion. My first spot i was looking at for the new shop went south. Landlord wanted to see $45000 in my account before he would agree to my request. And what happens. I get that info at 10am... Justin sent me a text offering me an opportunity to go in as a partner in his new shop back in colorado... Edwards to be spacific... At noon. Then I get a message from the vegas broker telling me there's another space open that is one block further down the road that used to be a tattoo shop. I had the proposal sent to that landlord just to see what I could do with it. Now things are crazy. I've literally gone thru every way of thinking almost every 24 hours. And it hasn't seemed to stop. What I want keeps going frm one thing to another in a swirl... I have pros and cons for both choices. Clair would be happier back in the vail valley. That's a hell of a thing since she hasn't seemed happy since we moved. I'm still feeling the sting whenever I think of the wrk that i've done to get evilution up and running. Then just to walk away.... It hurts. I miss justin thom craig kaufman and all the vail friends. The time I was working with justin was the best time i've ever had and I know it would be great to get back to that. The vegas shop has tons of potential... At least that's what I think. And I believe I can make it successful. But ... Vail... Friends... Justin.... Damnit. This is the way my head has been going for the last two weeks. I'm still trying to find a way to have my cake and eat it too. Stupid I know just don't want to feel like a failure. And I especially don't want to hurt my friend randy. This is so damn confusing. Everyone deserves t have an answer.... I just need a little time
Oh yeah.... I turned 33 two hours ago. Happy birthday to me
